PTSD Hospital Treatment: The Family in the Wings (week 4)

Since my husband was admitted to the PTSD psychiatric ward, it took him a week to firstly move out of the headspace that was clogged with the stress of our battle against his employer’s insurance company. It then took him another week to settle into the routine of living in a hospital ward, surrounded by […]

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PTSD Hospital Treatment: The Family in the Wings (week 3)

It hasn’t just been weeks, or even months. For years I have been trying to do it all, to keep up normal, and not let anything lapse. But, not surprisingly, living like this is not sustainable, even with support. With fresh clarity, this week has been about gradually finding a new way to be. Finding […]

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PTSD Hospital Treatment: The Family in the Wings (week 2)

MONDAY 21 AUGUST I have written too many emails and made countless phone calls over the past months, all in an urgent attempt to get my husband the care he needs and the support he is entitled to. The pressure has only been increasing, the desperation growing. But I had no real idea of where […]

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Living Through the Darkest Nights Alongside PTSD

The days might be long, or perhaps they’re not quite long enough. Sometimes dark and gloomy, and I walk robotically through the steps until I find tomorrow. Sometimes sunny and bright, and I wrap my hands around the possibilities like a hot cup of tea. Sometimes filled with too many jobs and running on too […]

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Yesterday We Seemed a World Apart, but Today We Are Both Just Mothers

You are a patient. Just one of many in an already-overwhelmed system, following the protocols, ticking the little boxes on crisp white paper. And I am a healthcare professional, submerged in the same system, following the same protocols, ticking a corresponding row of little boxes on crisp white paper. You are my patient. Walking through the pharmacy’s brightly lit […]

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When I First Became the Mother of a Mother

I had been a mother for a little over eight years when I first became the mother of a mother. I felt more than ready. I felt confident, even. But after we moved to our rural property and welcomed a very spirited rescue kitten into our family, I would soon come to realise that I was not at […]

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Making Memories in the Tasmanian Wilderness

It was one of those special days. The kind where the people you love the most are all around, ready to spend the day together. The kind where the sun seems to be shining just for you. An idea was planted, a course was selected, and a determined group of eight set out for a day in […]

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Reflecting on the End of a Chapter Scarred by PTSD

The late afternoon sun is blinding. I have to shut my eyes against the glare, though I don’t bother moving my chair away from the fierce rays. It is, at best, a mediocre excuse in case my kids happen to notice that I’m crying. They don’t. They’re having too much fun playing mermaid and pirate […]

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How a School Teacher’s Wedding Became a Beautiful Lesson

On a gusty Friday afternoon, with our umbrellas in hand, my 8-year-old daughter and I braved unseasonal heavy downpours to attend a very special wedding. I remember, as an 8-year-old girl, being enthralled by everything to do with weddings. The flowers, the romance, the fairytales, and especially the bridal dresses. My daughter is just as fascinated with weddings, and was […]

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The Night Our Sick Child Triggered the PTSD Beast

It likes to visit in the early hours after midnight, cutting through the hush of night so abruptly, so intensely, it will not be ignored for a second. But ignoring it never crosses our minds when we wake suddenly to the cries of his distress. With three children, it’s far from the first time we’ve […]

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5 Things I Wish I Could Have Told My Pregnant Self

I saw myself today. And at first, I didn’t even realise it was me. She was huddled against the cold of winter in thick folds of grey and black, stepping carefully out of the car. Her husband – one hand closing the door, the other instinctively, lovingly, resting on the small of her back – said something […]

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How I Explain the Raw Truths of PTSD to My Children

It was meant to be a good day. A day full of positive distractions. A day of moving forward with new ambitions. The type of day when we least expect PTSD triggers to strike. The type of day that we both happily let our guard down. Though maybe it was because of that, when the intrusions unexpectedly began to flood […]

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How Ignoring Your Child Can Improve Their Happiness

The best thing I did today was ignore my son. Yes, it’s true that he’s unable to fix his own meals, true that he can’t manage to dress himself, and true that he can’t even go to the toilet on his own. Yes, it’s also true that I am my son’s main carer, but today I […]

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What I Tell My Children About Their Father’s PTSD

“Mummy, why is Daddy so angry?” I feel my throat tighten as familiar tears prick at the corner of my eyes. My daughter sobs into her pillow, she doesn’t see me trying to empty my face of the distress that rattles me. The turbulence of my husband’s anger still hangs in the air, even though […]

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The Night Our Kids Discovered That We’re Awesome

At a time that is usually bristling with stress and anger, is there anything better than an impromptu moment of hilarity with your children? Dinner time. And a special treat for dessert that night – a few tasty sweets each. Predictably, our three kids each selected and devoured their sweet quotas in an instant. Their […]

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We Are Trying So Hard to Be Just as Normal as You

Sometimes, PTSD rains down on us. Just like a storm hits, unforeseen. We have no choice. We weather it. But the rain passes, eventually, and the ground begins to dry. Or does it? The next day, we desperately wait for the sun to come out so we don’t have to think about the storm that crossed […]

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